feel a feel

So much has happened in the span of last five months that i think hardly anything that has happened in all those years is worth mentioning here. I feel way more close to friends i have made here than i ever felt to people i have known for about a decade....feel more attched to this place than to the place where i have lived all my life....feel too many emotions too often. Even dream too much....of sunshine lit empty roads lined with trees....of wind in huge green fields... cottages surrounded by long golden grass.....sound of temple bells on chilly winter nights....shining green leaves and the smell of earth after first downpour...gray and cold rainy evenings that would arouse a sense of intense nostalgia...memories i can still attach feelings to. Yes i think frequently of home but do not yearn to be there.


Feeling too emotionally exausted right now.....want to close my eyes and feel the sea waves hitting my legs.....i open my eyes and there is black sea all around which somewhere merges with the black starry sky. I can see a small boat at the horizon flashing blue light and light from near by buildings being reflected on the water....i can feel the sand slipping beneath my feet.

too many random feelings......too intense for me to handle.